Rapper Kid
Cudi in an emotional post to his fans on Facebook Tuesday night, said he has
checked himself into a treatment facility for “depression and suicidal urges.”
He
wrote:
Its been
difficult for me to find the words to what Im about to share with you because I
feel ashamed. Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so many while admitting I've
been living a lie. It took me a while to get to this place of commitment, but
it is something I have to do for myself, my family, my best friend/daughter and
all of you, my fans.
Yesterday I
checked myself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges.
I am not at
peace. I haven't been since you've known me. I...f I didn't come here, I
wouldve done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a
pool of emotions everyday of my life. Theres a ragin violent storm inside of my
heart at all times. Idk what peace feels like. Idk how to relax. My anxiety and
depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave
the house because of it. I cant make new friends because of it. I dont trust
anyone because of it and Im tired of being held back in my life. I deserve to
have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so
much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I
think I never really knew how. Im scared, im sad, I feel like I let a lot of
people down and again, Im sorry. Its time I fix me. Im nervous but ima get
through this.
I wont be
around to promote much, but the good folks at Republic and my manager Dennis
will inform you about upcoming releases. The music videos, album release date
etc. The album is still on the way. Promise. I wanted to square away all the
business before I got here so I could focus on my recovery.
If all goes
well ill be out in time for Complexcon and ill be lookin forward to seeing you
all there for high fives and hugs.
Love and light
to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let anyone down. I really
am sorry. Ill be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like shit, I feel so
ashamed. Im sorry.
I love you,
Scott Mescudi
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